Friday, April 02, 2010
|7:58 AM|
|7:58 AM|
.Unhappiness.
Why is that people are unhappy? Why do people tends to make others unhappy? Or to say, where does unhappiness comes from? From our environment? Or from ourselves? Is it so important not to be unhappy? Is it so important that we should clear the unhappiness away from our life? But without unhappiness, how do we understand whats call, "Happiness"? Or should I ask, why am I unhappy? Was it really because of my environment that affected me? Or was it just myself? If one can build an indestructible life force, doesn't it make one being able to be happy even living in the state of hell? What exactly are the 10 worlds? Which world am I in right now? If you were to say that, the 10 worlds are interconnected. What is the feeling or being in both Buddhahood and Hell? Or is it the same feeling you'll get being in both Hell and Buddhahood? Definitely not right? So is am I currently in Buddhahood and Hell, or Hell and Buddhahood? But coming back to the point, does it even matters so much? What matters is, I'm not really happy. Not the part where, people always unhappy with things. But to the very point that, I'm not in Absolute Happiness yet. I'm just happy because it is relative happiness. I'm just happy because when we talk about scandals in NYPSD, I feel that it is fun. I'm just happy because my overall GPA is 3.02, I finally got my fruition. But what about times that I've nothing to do? Like times during YOG and times after I finished having my dialogue with WeiFeng. Do I still have the life force or condition to maintain my spirits? I don't think so. My life condition dropped every since my environmental support start to stop or go away. Which means, my inner life condition was never high at all. So what am I suppose to do? And something to add on too. Why am I so unhappy with people? I can't bao rong people with my heart anymore. Is like the fish tank suddenly shrink from a 50m fish tank into a 10m fish tank. Any irritating thing I hear or see, I'll always tend to hate them. Why is it like that so? Sanshoshima? Or even the worst nightmare of Fundamental Darkness? Why have I not seen anything like that when I was in ITACSD? Is it because that it was too difficult for me to be able to defeat it during then? KaiYang! Stop being like this can? It is super irritating yourself. Haha! I really have to start to build the inner happiness within my life. And always knowing that good things will happen! When great evil arises, great good follows! Maintaining pure in faith is definitely the key to happiness. Can I do that? Am I capable enough to be able to do that? Haha. I don't know, but I know that, with FAITH in the Gohonzon I definitely can! Because by giving myself 100 points, I'm also giving the Gohonzon 100 points in trusting it! That's how I gotten my GPA too, isn't it? How do I really get SP2 to be B+? It is nothing more than the power of the Gohonzon and never because it was only my own strength. Therefore, doesn't it means that, to maintain faith is also to maintain absolute happiness in our lives?
.TG4.
What is karma? What is the mystic karmic bond that we all have in our life? Why is it so strong? At a point where, I really hoped that I can join TG. I wasn't able to join, and my hope was scattered into pieces. Now that, I do not have the wish to join TG. Why are the chiefs still asking me to go for TG4's interview? But definitely, everything happens for a reason, why must it only be now, why me, why is it that, Wei Feng is the one that tell me this. All these, have their deep strong meaning behind it. Have I fully understand the meaning or reason? I not sure if I've, but I'm willing to take the bet by going to TG4 tomorrow! Like they say, it is not something that you'll definitely go into. So at the end of the day. If I'm not in, I'll still do my best and learn from those who went for TG4s! Isn't this what Gakkai is all about? Haha. Probably I'm really slower than others in realizing this fact.
.Correction.
"I'm a person that is really stupid myself, but because I've Gohonzon in my heart, I'm someone with limitless potential of wisdom." - Is this sentence finally the correct one?
"Maybe it is not the institution that is not moving, it is the one who thinks the institution not moving, not moving." - The only thing that is constant in this world is, change. Isn't it?
"Never to scold you comrades in faith, always treat them as if you're treating them your best friend." - This is something that I definitely need to learn!
Why is that people are unhappy? Why do people tends to make others unhappy? Or to say, where does unhappiness comes from? From our environment? Or from ourselves? Is it so important not to be unhappy? Is it so important that we should clear the unhappiness away from our life? But without unhappiness, how do we understand whats call, "Happiness"? Or should I ask, why am I unhappy? Was it really because of my environment that affected me? Or was it just myself? If one can build an indestructible life force, doesn't it make one being able to be happy even living in the state of hell? What exactly are the 10 worlds? Which world am I in right now? If you were to say that, the 10 worlds are interconnected. What is the feeling or being in both Buddhahood and Hell? Or is it the same feeling you'll get being in both Hell and Buddhahood? Definitely not right? So is am I currently in Buddhahood and Hell, or Hell and Buddhahood? But coming back to the point, does it even matters so much? What matters is, I'm not really happy. Not the part where, people always unhappy with things. But to the very point that, I'm not in Absolute Happiness yet. I'm just happy because it is relative happiness. I'm just happy because when we talk about scandals in NYPSD, I feel that it is fun. I'm just happy because my overall GPA is 3.02, I finally got my fruition. But what about times that I've nothing to do? Like times during YOG and times after I finished having my dialogue with WeiFeng. Do I still have the life force or condition to maintain my spirits? I don't think so. My life condition dropped every since my environmental support start to stop or go away. Which means, my inner life condition was never high at all. So what am I suppose to do? And something to add on too. Why am I so unhappy with people? I can't bao rong people with my heart anymore. Is like the fish tank suddenly shrink from a 50m fish tank into a 10m fish tank. Any irritating thing I hear or see, I'll always tend to hate them. Why is it like that so? Sanshoshima? Or even the worst nightmare of Fundamental Darkness? Why have I not seen anything like that when I was in ITACSD? Is it because that it was too difficult for me to be able to defeat it during then? KaiYang! Stop being like this can? It is super irritating yourself. Haha! I really have to start to build the inner happiness within my life. And always knowing that good things will happen! When great evil arises, great good follows! Maintaining pure in faith is definitely the key to happiness. Can I do that? Am I capable enough to be able to do that? Haha. I don't know, but I know that, with FAITH in the Gohonzon I definitely can! Because by giving myself 100 points, I'm also giving the Gohonzon 100 points in trusting it! That's how I gotten my GPA too, isn't it? How do I really get SP2 to be B+? It is nothing more than the power of the Gohonzon and never because it was only my own strength. Therefore, doesn't it means that, to maintain faith is also to maintain absolute happiness in our lives?
.TG4.
What is karma? What is the mystic karmic bond that we all have in our life? Why is it so strong? At a point where, I really hoped that I can join TG. I wasn't able to join, and my hope was scattered into pieces. Now that, I do not have the wish to join TG. Why are the chiefs still asking me to go for TG4's interview? But definitely, everything happens for a reason, why must it only be now, why me, why is it that, Wei Feng is the one that tell me this. All these, have their deep strong meaning behind it. Have I fully understand the meaning or reason? I not sure if I've, but I'm willing to take the bet by going to TG4 tomorrow! Like they say, it is not something that you'll definitely go into. So at the end of the day. If I'm not in, I'll still do my best and learn from those who went for TG4s! Isn't this what Gakkai is all about? Haha. Probably I'm really slower than others in realizing this fact.
.Correction.
"I'm a person that is really stupid myself, but because I've Gohonzon in my heart, I'm someone with limitless potential of wisdom." - Is this sentence finally the correct one?
"Maybe it is not the institution that is not moving, it is the one who thinks the institution not moving, not moving." - The only thing that is constant in this world is, change. Isn't it?
"Never to scold you comrades in faith, always treat them as if you're treating them your best friend." - This is something that I definitely need to learn!
SSA
Singapore Soka Association is a Buddhist organisation established to promote understanding and practice of Buddhism. Buddhism teaches that every individual has the potential to become enlightened in his or her lifetime. Each person has within, the power to overcome life's challenges, to live a life of value and be a positive influence in one's community, society and the world. Soka in Chinese means Value Creation. Please go SSA Website for more info.
FBodz
Having dance as my passion. Foreign Bodies is the hip hop/street dance club in NYP that I just joined. Not much performance now. I'll update more next time! More updates are in Foreign Bodies Blog
SRN
Every month, we'll have our district discussion meetings where we'll learn and discuss more about Buddhism and Life. This is split by the chapter and district we are in. I'm in Serangoon North Chapter, district 4, together with my parents! We normally have several platforms for our youths. We had a Chapter Friendship Gathering where we invite our friends to our center to know more about our Buddhism, and during then, our youths together put up and short skit and dance! We also have BBQ session to celebrate the success of our Chapter Friendship Gathering and also Pot Luk Session for our youths in SRN to bond more together!
ITAC
I was in ITAC from OCT 07 to JUN 09. ITAC is an institution that is under our Student Division [SD] in SSA. Student Division members consist of all tertiary students in Singapore, from all JCs, ITEs, Polys, to University and also Private Schools. ITAC stands for Institute of Technical, Arts and Commence, which consist of all the private schools in Singapore. In ITAC, we study intensively into Buddhism and our Mentor, Daisaku Ikeda. We also encourage our members and leaders to do our best in our studies and work, and become Future Leaders of the Intellectual World to lead people to happiness! ITACSD Blog
NYPSD
I've just transfered from ITAC to NYPSD during this year, June. NYPSD is another institution in SD. Our members and CICs [Campus-In-Charge] are students all studying in NYP! We usually meet up in NYP itself or SYC [Soka Youth Center] to study Buddhism, chant together, encourage each other and most importantly to create more values in our and other's life! Anyone that is studying in NYP and interested learn about Buddhism or wish to join our activities can feel free to contact me!
HCF
Hugs and Chatterbox Family is my clique when I was still in FD [Future Division, which consist of all the secondary school students]. The group started to formed in Dec 07. We mainly encourage each other thru Buddhism and dance together to perform. HCF had performed a spirit booster dance item for Chingay 07, hip hop dance for FDGM 08 [Future Division General Meeting] and SD Anniversary 08!
FLINT 1
FLINT stands for Future Leaders In Niche Training. It is a training course in FD [Future Division], which train us to be a better person and also to be future leaders of SSA. Currently FLINT have already come to the sixth batch and I'm proud to say that I'm in the first batch, which our trainings was during Feb 06 to May 06. But we didn't just stopped there. FLINT 1 has continued to do a project in FD Sports Meet during June 06, Ignites Concert during Aug 06, Reunion during Nov 07, Sensei's 80th Birthday Present Making during Dec 07, CNY Light Up Hip Hop Dance as Trainers during Nov 08 to Jan 09 and FLINT 1-5 Kenshu during Jan 09! And I strongly believe that, there'll be more to come!
Dynamo
Dynamo is a group in Chingay 07, where I get to know most of my best friends in Gakkai now! Even through, it wasn't a very long training period, but that time was definitely the best dance trainings I ever had. And up til now, we are still have reunion meet ups!
FD-Coaching
FD-Coaching is a Coaching Class started off by EngPeng, Jerry, Laura, Alvin, QiJun and me! It is an offical group in FD that fully in-charged by SD Students. The purpose to set up FD-Coaching is to help our juniors in their studies towards 'O/N' Levels, encourage them in from our own experiences and also bring them back to Faith. Currently FD-Coaching is in-charged by Ivan from NYPSD. For more information, please go, FD-Coaching Blog
DA02
DA02 is my class in NYP - School of Interactive and Digital Media - Digital Media Design (Animation) Course. Being the noisiest, most positive, cheerful and definitely most outrageous class in DMD(A). We have being complained by many lecturers during the first month of school. But now, we are proud to say that we do not receive anymore complains! Haha! I'm really happy to be in this class.